As a bit of a mental break from the stress of the search, my go to has been my hair. Anyone that has known me in the last 2 to 3 years knows that the only constant about my hair is that there will be some measure of it on my head at some point. I have gone from long to short to straight to curly to asymmetric to faded and everything in between.
I am such a hair schizophrenic that I have a large area in my house devoted to wigs, ponytails, and appliances (lovingly dubbed "the Hair Drawer".) Let it also be known that I maintain no less than 3 packs of weave hair in my trunk at all times. You never know!
I just got my hair cut two weeks ago by the amazing Jared Jackson Dean, (who I adore, btw), and wouldn't you know that I am sitting here on hairsisters.com visualizing which 14 inch weave would look best on my head next week. I'm still getting compliments on my cut. I keep it well-maintained, but I just feel the need for a change.
In thinking further into the why of my constant need for change, I've realized that it is simply about control. Because there are things in my life that frustrate me and make me cry, I go for the thing that I know I have the most control over: my long-suffering coif. Even in the midst of my groping for the light, I know where my hair is and can pretty much flat iron the back of my head without a mirror.
I'm not sure if the realization if WHY I change my hair up will stop me from doing it. But, I ask that if you see me with a completely different style than I had last week, you just let me work through it in my own way.
